the news about mom

Yesterday after my job, I headed to a church...
I need to find some solitude at this moment...

A year ago it was my most memorable day of my mother...

My aunt called on my review class...

I burst in tears after hearing a threatening news, She's also in tears at that time...

I am miles away from her...
I keep my mouth shut, I lost my logic and reason...

I never remember crying for years, I almost forgotten how to...

But at that very moment, The only thing I can describe is that, TEARS is involuntary...

I tried to contact A friend But my phone is drain..
Maybe the hour calls that I should keep this very moment for myself...

I can never forget those time, The very moment I Cried aloud begging for God to keep my Mother.

It was the longest travel of my life...
I am waiting for something nobody would want to happen.
I can never forget those moments, when sudden flashes of my mothers life flash vividly on my memory.

I saw her every emotions,I saw her laugh, angry, suffer but never did my memory remembers that she cries..

I am on the bus at that time...
I wanted to cry but I keep holding my tears...
I wanted to see Her but afraid That something would happen
and that would be our Last.

I can never forget my Last conversation with Her.
The Fading voices of love for me and my siblings...
It was the last word from her...
To take care of my siblings...

I wanted to hug her at that time...

Maybe it was the reason why I cannot sleep a day before my Aunt called me.
Maybe it was her mind thinking about Her Sons and Daughter...
Cherishing the memories...

It was the day I never really prepared to have a stronger hold against..

I miss you MOM.